A Random Whatever I wrote

Dear God,
Why did you make humans have so many questions without answers? For example some of my lingering questions with no answers are:

How Can I write something that hurts people so much and causes so many problems?
How Can I hurt someone I care about so much?
How Can I be the person I was meant to be when I feel like the heavenly father turned his back on me?
How Can I ever overcome all the hurt I’ve had in my life?
How Can I still have one of my best friends when I hurt her so much?
How Can I get my smile back again?

Then all the How Can I’s lead to Why Can’t I’s
Why Can’t I be beautiful?
Why Can’t I let myself get close to people?
Why Can’t I have one friendship where I don’t hurt others?

Of Course with the Why Can’ts comes the Whys

Why am I so afraid to open up to people?Why do I feel like if I get close to someone I’m going to get hurt, therefore when we get to a level of closeness I push the people I care about away.
Why can’t I overcome this so I can just have one friend I’m not scared to be close to?

God, why did you give us all these questions with no answers?

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